When did it begin? His stillness...
I know that he still goes a mile a minute in most actions within his little life, but at what point did he go from non-stop baby to calm every-now-and-again young lad?
And I miss him. I miss the time we had together when he only had half days of pre-school. I miss that he doesn't always ask for "a carry" now when we're out and about. I miss that he doesn't ask me to build train tracks for him anymore (Hot Wheels are the new thing now). And I miss HIM.
He is growing. He has opinions - his own mind. He argues with his sisters. He can be extremely bad tempered and lash out. Getting him to concentrate on his homework is like getting blood from a stone. He shouts. I shout. We cry. But above all we love.
I'm aware now though, that somewhere in the transition period from his frantic, chaotic baby years to the little lad I am now bringing up, I have also lost my track of documenting. The less time I have to spend with him now has somehow manifested in my lack of capturing him being him. Not just him either; my daughters, my husband, myself...
I need that to change. I must have those moments of stillness frozen in a frame. For him, for my daughters, for me. For our family. It's something that I've not been doing in the same way that I used to. I'm considering another 365; photo a day project next year for this reason. It seems proper that his metamorphosis to a greater amount of stillness is the propeller to make me want to do more.
Thanks for reading.
x Fleur x
